Since my collage days I was doubtful about existence of God,
I used to argue with all by stating God doesn’t exists. I used to argue, its you
who put effort so you get the result, if you don’t put effort you won’t get
desired outcome. Universe is all about science, everything is based on science.
I remember my friend had given me example saying if I was about to meet accident
and somehow if I am saved won’t you believe in God and I had answered him, I will
call it coincidence.
I started to find answer to my question by reading books. Mostly I read
books about Swami Vivekanand and books by ‘Ramkrishna Math‘ as Swami Vivekanand also never
believed in God in his childhood and as Narendra was against Murti Pooja and
later he became devotee.
And now I have my own definition of God that God is human creation, its a belief. Common person needs to be hopeful all the time to live successful life,
when things goes beyond ones capability he needs someone to rely on. As child
we trust our parents, teacher. When we grow old probably its the concept of God
that helps us to trust on and be hopeful. There is some energy because of which this
universe is created and being operated, I call that energy as God and I surrender
myself to it.
In many situation we don’t get answer for many of the
questions like why this happened to me when I did not put any efforts. Eg. When I
had put efforts, in spite of having offer letters from two companies my joining was
delayed indefinitely due to recession and next year I was fortunate enough to get
call form one of those company, which was my dream company although I was graduated last
year and was no longer fresh passed out. And I now I call that as destiny. Destiny
is inevitable. But I still have a question, is there still some logic behind destiny?
I believe in one more thing which my religion has taught me God (the universal energy) is everywhere in you, me and in every living, non-living being. So be grateful
to everything. To realize this, you & God are same is liberation. You
will be free then and nothing will be unachievable for you.
Sometimes I do rituals but that just because it makes me
happy and auspicious. In most of Hindu religion by doing pooja, we express thankfulness
to living nonliving things. You can express your gratitude in any form that’s what
I believe in.
The same thing was explained by one liner definition I had found
in one of the book and which I had liked, is mentioned in blog below.
What is God